I thought I’d take a break from talking about me in this blog and talk about you. How are you? And no. it’s not an empty nicety or something you say to someone in the hopes that they’ll say “yeah I’m all good” I am genuinely interested…
TELL ME HOW YOU’RE FUCKING DOING. TELL ME HOW YOU’RE FUCKING FEELING. I WANT TO KNOW. HONESTLY!! If you’re not O.k. That’s O.K. It’s 100% fine to NOT be O.K. Shit, I’ll start. I’m not O.K. I feel like a complete failure at the moment. A failure because I can’t find a full-time job in the industry I’m in. I applied for a job with another station and I didn’t even get an interview. Rejected before phase 1. I was told that ‘my skills and experience didn’t meet their specific criteria’. It was a job as a radio announcer. That is what I have been for the past 4 years. (go figure). I feel like a failure because my children don’t want me to put them to bed at night they only want their mum, a failure because I let myself get to the size and weight that I am, and I am now in a position where I am not very well because of it. So actually, I’m not O.K at the moment. I’m pretty fucking far from O.K. I lost a friend today. We weren’t the type of friends that hold hands in the park and spend every waking moment with each other. Hell, the last time I saw him was about 9 months ago or so, we were actually more friends of friends who happen to bump into each other every now and then, but I considered him a friend. Fuck he had a great sense of humour! We were at a wedding together for some good mutual friends a few years ago and shit his jokes were inappropriately marvelous! He had an incredibly beautiful wee family and now he’s gone. My thoughts and prayers are with his family at this time, too. I got a text from a friend asking me if I ‘had heard’. I knew what had happened straight away. I knew he hadn’t won Lotto. I knew he didn’t become an overnight celebrity or that he had just inherited 70 million. I KNEW from that simple question “Hey did you hear about so & so” that I was not ever going to see him again. Over the years I have had too many of those messages sent to me by friends. I got the message at the pools as I was in the family changing rooms getting the kids changed from after our swim. Right then and there I lost my shit and started bawling my eyes out and hugging my children. I DON’T WANT TO GET THOSE MESSAGES ANYMORE. THIS HAS TO STOP. Please. If you are feeling like there is no way out and you can’t seem to crawl out of the pit you’re in REACH OUT FOR HELP! Someone will throw you a ladder so that you can climb out. Reach out to someone. Anyone. Have a scroll through the contacts list on your phone. Any one of those names will be at your door within minutes if you genuinely need their support and time. There are also anonymous services like lifeline that you can call if you don’t want to ‘burden’ your friends with your heavy shit but let me tell you right now. You are not a burden to your friends. This is what friendship is. This is why we’re here on this earth – To interact, connect and form bonds with other human beings. Otherwise – what’s the point? The people you connect with and form bonds with are called ‘friends’ and they will love you and be there for you whenever you need them and if they won’t, then they’re C*@ts (and sadly, there are a few of these types around, too). Filter those pricks out of your life and surround yourself with positivity, love, kindness and hope. Suicide is something that STILL gets swept under the rug and that people don’t want to talk about. I for one am sick and tired of losing friends this way. If you are someone that is feeling fine at the moment, have a look around your circle of friends and take the time (and actually do this) to see how someone else is doing. A genuine “Hey bro, how are you doing? I’ve noticed you’ve been a bit down lately. Is there anything you want to talk about”? Will go down better than you think it will. We need to help each other out. There is so much negativity in the world at the moment and the human race could do with a fucking lift. Be that lift. Be that change. Reach out to someone less fortunate than you and offer a helping hand. Pay for someone’s coffee. Pull over and help that person change their tyre. Use the supermarket checkout operators name when you speak to them. I mean, Fuck. Hold the door open for someone. Doing small things like this, makes people feel valued, appreciated and loved. This world can be so ugly. Human beings can be so ugly to each other and lately I have noticed it more and more. It's disgusting. I've seen videos on Facebook where people are beating the shit out of each other and bystanders are filming it all and laughing. WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH US!? HOW IS THIS O.K?!. We are (supposedly) the most advanced, clever and beautiful life forms on this planet and this is the kind of shit that we are doing to each other. That kinda shit makes me so sad and actually ashamed to be a part of the human race. We need to be ENCOURAGING not DISCOURAGING. We need to speak LOVE not HATE and for the love of Christ we need use our hands to uplift and comfort each other not to strike one another and beat each other down. So, I would like to offer my support to anyone that reads this blog. Most of you are friends anyway, so I would like to finish by saying: “Hey. How are you doing? Really? I have noticed you seem a little down lately. Do you want to talk about it? Is there anything I can do to help”? “I don’t want to get a text from a mutual friend of ours saying” “Hey, did you hear about so & so” ….
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Ash
7/10/2018 08:48:15 pm
Thanks Lee.
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Anon
7/12/2018 04:46:02 am
Thanks for this Lee
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Russell
7/13/2018 07:23:44 pm
Awsome words Lee
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JKT
8/4/2018 06:00:25 am
Hey man this is really moving.And you know I haven't seen you in years but you know that you have a friend who would be there if you if you ever need. BTW Thanks for sharing and being so inspirational. When I read your first blog. It made me go see my new Dr too and get a dull check up. Lucky for me I'm not in pre diabetes stage or anything. But I have been put on a strict healthy eating and exercise program. Cause I am overweight and that could lead to all kinds of things later on. Love ya man. Keep fighting the good fight.
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